Wednesday, 15 August 2018

Mental Health

It may have been a couple of months since my last blog post (okay, this still isn't good enough) but after going through quite a lot personally I most definitely needed to take a break from posting and in all honestly I had completely lost my mojo when it came to writing etc in fact I kind of lost all of my passion for what I had started way back in the beginning. 

However, after a much needed break and a lot of mental healing and soul searching, I am going to start re-introducing blog posts back into my life, working out a whole new schedule, as well as being a lot more active over on my Instagram as well.  

In all honestly I can't quite remember if I have ever shared with you guys on here my struggles with severe anxiety and depression which I have been dealing with for quite a number of years now but with mental health being such a huge conversational topic all over the media I thought to myself why not talk about it and share my experiences. And who knows, if it helps even one person then that's a start. 

Just for a quick history briefing, I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression around two or so years ago now and it is something which I originally struggled to come to terms with. In all honesty I was probably suffering with it a lot longer than that but this was when I had finally decided enough was enough and took myself to the doctors to seek some professional and medical help. Since this time things haven't been "perfect" to put it frank, however, I have definitely seen, noticed and felt a whole let better as time has gone on and although my issues may never leave me, and they may rear their head again, I feel I am much better prepared for them in the future. 

I won't be going into full depth detail of what I feel and found out caused my mental health to deteriorate as I honestly don't feel that this is the right time for that or important in the grand scheme of things. Although I would like to say that once I was diagnosed it started to be a lot easier to understand why I had been such a horrible and isolated person and why I never felt good enough or any of that. But from when I found out and I was able to get the help I needed I can now say that hand on heart speaking about it and opening up has been one of the things in which has saved my life. 

Speaking about it in fact has been one of the key principles which I took and still take in helping me grow into a better person. Someone who is capable of handling what life throws at them a lot better. When I was diagnosed I took it upon my self to not only go and see my Doctor but to also find someone I could speak too, openly and honestly this was one of my main downfalls, I was a very closed book and never asked anyone for help and so I came across my lovely counsellor who supported me and helped me shed light on things in all honestly that didn't even cross my mind into being a factor or contribution in my health deterioration. 

I have been seeing a counsellor for a good eighteen months to two years now and she is such a lovely woman. At first it was very difficult to speak to her and open up, but I knew it was the right thing as I needed a third party to speak to and use as my outlet, someone who didn't know me personally and who I could be completely honest to and would definitely not judge me. And I think to this day this is one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. 

Mental health is not a joke and it is a lot more common than you may actually think. You may feel like you're the only one going through these things trust me you're not and you may think that no one will/can understand you again this is not true but that's what it does to you. It makes you feel like you aren't strong enough or brave enough to be you, or talk about your problems as it will make you look weak etc to name just a few things But I know from experience that you're really not alone. There are people out there who understand you and can help guide you into being the person you want to be, where you won't be afraid to open up and share your true self. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and after working on myself I now truly believe that. 

Looking back on the person I was only two year ago compared to now, there is a huge difference and I haven't been the only one to notice that change. People who know me, family and people who love me have seen such a change in me as a whole and I have become such a stronger and more confident person since going through the struggles and pain. 

Coming back to blogging and social media can be a strain on your mental health whether you suffer severely or not, but right now I'm at a time in my life where things are going so great, I'm better than ever and I'm ready to tackle what the world has in store in for me and so I'm genuinely excited in moving forward and growing with you guys on this journey. 

I would love to be able to share with you a few of the things in which I have done which has massively helped me get back on a good track and I would love to hear from any of you guys as to whether or not you would like that. 

I'm a lot more open to creating posts dedicated to mental health and tips and advice which I have found extremely useful myself. I would also like to let you guys know that I am here to talk to and if you would like to you can leave a comment or email me if you would like to keep it confidential and I would be more than happy to share with you my experiences. 

Would you find something like this helpful? Perhaps if I start a little mini serious and health and wellbeing? Leave your comments and suggestions below. Any constructive feedback would be hugely appreciated. 


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